feelings~

my soh gua gua is sick..
pity him..
fever till his eye swollen..

i was very angry this afternoon..
because of his attitude..
i was waiting for him..
but untill i called him..
he only tell me he still at school..
he forgot what he told me this morning..
really angry..
went home by bus..
sat at playground..
thinking back something..
sad memory..
hate the feel that being abandon by someone..
flashback about the day..
i waiting at the bus stop alone..
for 4 to 5 hours..
at night..
no ways to get back home..
waiting for somebody..
call never answered..
worry about someone..
will any accident happened to him?
not dare to go back..
scared he will come for me..
but when im on taxi..
try to call to his home..
he answered..
tears droped out of control..
he already get back home..
but never find me..
reach that road..
saw him far away..
not angry but disappointed..
he lost his phone..
and cant remember my phone number..
all i can do just crying n went back home..
i choose not to WAIT for him..

today i have the same feeling..
i know im thinking too much..
not that serious..
i really feel like he already forget about me..
but the difference is..
i know how to get back by myself..
im wont depend on someone..
maybe im grown up..
im big girl now..

sorry dear..
i know i exaggerate this..
sorry..
i wont leave you soh gua gua..
i wont no matter what happen..
im holding your hand now..
im staying beside you..
hugging you when you are cold..
kissing you when you sleep..
i love you..
forever and ever..
muackssss..